Learning, growing & changing

I’m humbly grasping onto the purpose of first love & all it entails

Lord, you gave me eyes to see it all through an act of obedience years ago

“I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which He has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in His holy people.” — Ephesians 1:18

In an act of surrendering something I wanted up to You.. because more than my desires I wanted You

I needed You, desired You, longed to be in Your presence

Three years ago, I surrendered Skyler to you & you brought my hearts desires back x a million…

Wildly more beautiful than I ever envisioned or dreamed my life could be

Although I am so unworthy & don’t deserve all that I desire.. You blessed me anyways

You are a good, good Father — It truly is who You are.. the goodness in my life is all from You

Blessing him and I both with a beautiful life & family.. oh what a ride, thank You Jesus

Now the lesson is playing out again.. as I lean into these blessings & continue becoming oh how I am learning

Lord I ask you make me a humble student, work through me & purify my heart

I know I’ll never get it right.. but all I want is a life that honors You.. I don’t deserve the glory

Let me be a sponge, absorbing all You are teaching.. as I am learning, growing & changing

I want to know the language of first love.. loving You first teaches me everything

It teaches me how to love myself & from that place I pray to know how to love others well

To mother well.. to honor Skyler, our family, our friends.. to love God & people

“Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers a multitude of sins.” — 1 Peter 4:8

Loving you first Lord.. it has filled and transformed my heart, it’s changed my life

Loving you first is the essence to pure, genuine, sweet love.. which is what we are all longing for

Loving myself through Your eyes, Jesus vs my own eyes.. I finally see true beauty in who I am

I am who You say I am.. “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.” — Matthew 5:14

Through Jesus, our identity is secure.. & it is through receiving Him that we can receive pure love

All He wants is everything.. He wants our hearts, spirits & minds.. because all He has for us is for our good

Sometimes it can be the most painful act of surrender.. How can you give all of yourself to One you cannot see?

“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” — Hebrews 11:1

I understand.. it’s the most painful thing but the reward is far greater than the pain of letting go

“Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think according to the power that works in us.” — Ephesians 3:20

I love you friend, He loves you more